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Her Fiat Pierced My Heart

Mary is the person that always points me in the direction of her Son. I haven’t always had a big devotion to our Blessed Mother Mary. Growing up, I knew who she was, and I prayed my Hail Marys, but that’s as far as my relationship with her went.

It wasn’t until The Passion of the Christ hit movie theaters that Mary touched my heart in a personal way. The scene that had me silently sobbing was when Jesus falls for the first time and Mary runs to Him. The film flashes back to Mary swooping the child Jesus in her arms, reminding me of her unconditional love. Her fiat…her yes to God…pierced my heart.

Mary said yes no matter the cost. She said yes with absolute faith in the Lord. She said yes because she trusted in a plan that hadn’t been revealed to her. How many times did I trust in His plan with that kind of faith? I realized that I had never trusted God like that, but I did have the desire to.

Mary quickly became my role model and the person I wanted to be like. I wanted her to teach me to love without limits and how to trust in His plan. A few months later, I took a leap of faith and accepted a job in ministry at my home parish. I didn’t know what His plan was, but I placed my trust in Him. Was it complete trust? Probably not, but it was a starting point.

Time flew by, and nine years later I found my relationship with Mary had grown a lot. I had prayed many rosaries and continued to come to her for guidance, as well as her intercession. Then in March of that year, my life drastically changed.

After some months of difficulty in my marriage, I found out my husband was struggling with a drug addiction that could ultimately take his life. I didn’t know it then, but all the time I had spent praying for a heart like Mary’s she was preparing me for this time in my life. I had come to a point where I needed to trust in His plan in a way that I never had before.

It wasn’t easy. There were plenty of tears and moments when I felt like it was impossible to trust. That was when a dear friend asked me to pray the 54 Day Rosary Novena with her and a group of other women. I said yes without knowing how much Mary would help heal my heart. I went in trusting that Mary could help me, and she did. That was my first step in completely trusting in His plan.

Those 54 days provided me with more than healing. They brought me peace in the midst of chaos and uncertainty. Mary became my confidant and helped me to see how the Lord was working in my life and my husband’s life to bring about a resurrection that is still unfolding. I continue to look to her as a model of strength, love, and compassion.

In a few words, our Blessed Mother Mary is my friend, a light in the darkness, the calm in a storm, and an example of grace. I know who Mary is in my heart not just who she was. My relationship with her is personal. She is my heavenly mother, and she is also yours.

This past Advent, I completed the Marian Consecration, 33 Days to Morning Glory, for the first time. If you ever have the opportunity to pray the 54 Day Rosary Novena or to consecrate yourself to our Blessed Mother, I highly recommend it. Your life will never be the same.

Mother Mary, Mother of God… Pray for us.

About the Author

Monica Harness

Monica Harness is the Director of Youth Ministry at St. Francis of Assisi, and the area contact for the great big state of Texas.